ps. i love you

omg. this is far worse than getting a hangover.
i just completed reading ps. i love you.
i had other plans for my afternoon such as completing my tutorials so that i wouldn't have to rush through it tonight.
but i gave up after the 2nd question andd took out the book to read.
big mistake.
i didn't stop all the way until now.
which is close to 2 hours.
OHGAWD this is even sadder than a walk to remember.
all the times she remembered Gerry,
how much she loved him and how devastated she was for him.
i was wrong when i thought this book wouldn't make me cry.

until 3/4 of the book,i was still doing fine.
sure, it did tug at my heartstrings abit,
but i wasn't gonna cry.
until the one part where she descriptively described her pain,
her loss of Gerry, how she'd really trade ANYTHING and everything she had in the world just to have him back.
that did it.
i started crying like crazy!
its jus SO SAD!
how on earth can anyone imagine such a sad thing to happen?

and now, i'm totally moodless to do anything.
its just like the time i watched secret and although i know it was a happy ending,
it was still happily sad..
i had this weird 'hangover' after the show where i kept listening to that theme song,
'bu neng shuo de mi mi' andd i just kept tearing silently.
it went on for 4 days that time,
during which i didn't have any mood to do anything.
i'm getting the exact same 'hangover' again!
except this time, it may be worse.

i dun want Gerry to die.
if Gerry didn't die, Holly wouldn't be so damn devastated.
i wouldn't be reading about how much she loved gerry,
andd how he so thoughtfully left behind a whole year of hand-written msgs
just to tide her through the toughest time of her life.
denn i wouldn't be so sad reading their story right?

denn again, stories like this makes you cherish the people around you more.
andd it helps me see that something so wonderful exists in this world.
the love between holly and gerry is simply... fictional!
its too perfect.
how could any girl love a guy so much?
andd how could any guy love a girl so selflessly.
but i'm sure such strong love do exist,
as in the case of kq and glen =D

enough about it, now i gotta watch southpark
to get my mood up again or i'm gonna get it frm ms sim for not completing my tutorials.
I am sooooo tempted to watch ps. i love you on tudou now!
i jus wanna watch it again and again,
i dun mind the crying part.
its just too sweet.

oh yes, today is ying jie's 18th birthday!
happy birthday!!!!
18 is practically the legal age,
andd we presented yj with her 18th birthday present of vodka with 7-up(raspberry)
but i thinkk the vodka was wayy to strong,
so she didn't finish the entire cup on her own.
in the end,
shanyi, me and eunice ended up downing most of it.
shanyi practically walked zig-zaggedly to the bus stop!
hahahaha jkjk. she wasn't drunkk la.
her jiu liang power one leh.
i was feeling so sleepy in the bus,
i even considered sleeping all the way till the bus reached the terminal,
denn take another bus back to cg.
but considering the fact that my bed was so much more comfortable,
i forced myself to stay awake.
in the end when i got home and took a shower,
all the sleepiness was gone.
i was so alert and ready to do my homework,
but it has all been ruined by the book.

ohwells, tmr's a friday.
i hate fridays.

[[ life is for living. but it always helps if there's an angel watching over you ]]