opinions are seriously subjective

have you all been reading xiaxue's blog lately?
okay i haven't been so when i just went to visit it this afternoon,
i saw this big hooha about her and dawn.
apaarently its some bloggers' conflict.
what can i say, i've always been a fan of xiaxue,
alright i take that back, not fan..
an avid READER of her blog.
i thinkk her blogging style is very open,
and its very admirable..
seriously, whoever or whatever she doesn't like or likes,
BAM! out it comes.
she's very brave in the sense that she dares to admit who she doesn't like.
its very hard to attain that kinda level,
andd seriously, as much as i've tried working towards having that kinda honesty,
it doesn't work for me.
i just feel really mean if i were to blog and say stuff like,
'walao today xxxx was sucha bitch lor. i really can't stand her acting cute!"
that kinda thing..
its a NO way for me.
call me coward, call me timid but i just dun like the feeling of others hating me.
fine, hate me secretly, just as long as i dunno.
cos if i noe that a particular person doesn't like me,
immediately i will bu shuang with that person also.
andd find means and ways to pinpoint all her negativities.
some people can live with that, i can't.
i've only seriously hated one person in my entire life before,
its that guy who's birthday is on the 1st of may.
he's the first person to insult me continuously non-stop and that made me really pissed.
and he has the biggest ego i've ever seen(during sec sch days)
so i guess i just found him annoying and i hated his guts out.
thinking back now, i thinkk i dun hate him anymore.
neutral i guess, but i never wanna be frens with him as well.
imagine him annoying me again and i have to hate him all over again,
no way man.

i also dun like the feeling of hating people cos i find that its like...
can't sleep properly at night.
okay la, this one is not a classic example,
but close to it.
one night my sis made me really REALLY annoyed.
i did hate her, but hating ur sis isn't the same cos it'll be forgotten the next day.
how long can u go hating ur own sibling? its jus weird.
okay so i was really really mad at her.
but it was so close to my bedtime that i really couldn't be bothered to quarrel with her.
it took me awhile to fall asleep cos i was rather tired..
and that night i dreamt that i was scolding someone.
i guess someone who pissed me off in my dream..
and i was really vulgar okay!
i can remember myself swearing and cursing,
all the f*** and cb all flowing out.
but after the scolding session,
i felt so shiok in my dream.
at least i let out all my anger.
but see, that's not healthy man!
hahahas. i'd rather dream of other stuff than dream of scolding people in my dreams.
and i guess i'll actually GET more rest if i weren't off scolding people in my dreams,
waste energy you know..

right, so back to the xiaxue and dawn thing.
hahaha i can't help but side xiaxue.
its a natural thing la..
i think those who go against her are like dumb lor.
seriously, xiaxue, being a you-say-me-i-make-sure-i-will-say-you-back kinda person,
you still want to pit yourself against her?
save yourself the trouble man.
andd its not like people dunno she's one to be so open-minded,
so naturally, insults are like what she does best.
whether she means it or not is probably a different thing.
but i think the whole thing arised from her and dawn being jealous of each other.
she's probably jealous that dawn is rather hot
(although i think KK is wayy more prettier. dawn's jus a pile of make-up)
and dawn's jealous cos xiaxue's blogg is more popular than hers.
but either way, they made a mountain out of a molehill.
andd the manager is seriously extra la..
maybe its cos im reading it from xiaxue's blog which is in favour of her that's why i'd feel like the manager of dawn is being kinda irritating, but still..
what can i say?
without stuff like that,
how can we see the interesting sides of xiaxue and other bloggers?
see steven lim!
all thanks to xiaxue that we can have such entertaining stuff going on.
and get to noe such BHB people like steven lim(who btw thinks he is HOT? i think he's probably comparable to william hung la, even william's cuter than him)

also i can't help but admit that i'm kinda shocked fellow bloggers would behave like this.
wanna hear a secret?
i used to hope and wish i can be like xiaxue.
as in do blogging for a living.
but i could never be as critical and witty,
which is a very hard to acheive combination.
i mean, i was in more for the SLACK part.
sit at home and use computer to blogg and EARN money.
plus plus plus, you get sponsors and invited to all the cool events so that you can advertise it on ur blog.
who wouldn't want?
its the slackest thing in the world and you can EARN a living from that.
but seeing this kinda thing bursts my dream bubble.
i dunno how i would handle it if i were xiaxue.
i'd probably...yeahh firstly,
show wad an asshole dawn's manager is.
denn, go on to insult dawn in the most UNGLAM manner
(i wouldn't be able to keep my cool and retort back like xiaxue)
probably cry when i read what my readers comment
(especially those that are against me)
probably quit my job as a blogger.
hahahaha.
so i guess the whole blogging thing isn't exactly my THING.
just keep to the low profile bloggers that are very common all over singapore.
i mean, it has its plus points too.
i've probably ended up insulting xiaxue and dawn,
but what can anybody do about it?
hahahas. not like their manager's gonna start sending me emails.
they probably can't even locate my blog,
but here i am, free to voice out my thoughts on the matter.

btw..
this is really gross.

XIAXUE KILLING A CRAB FOR CHILLI CRAB.
after watching this i dun think i dare go near chilli crabs anymore.
you know why i have this phobia against frog porridge?
i think i would be brave enough to give it a try if i hadn't seen the frog getting CHOPPED UP in front of me.
it was when i was watching my 王子变青蛙drama summore.
i was out with my family,
when i saw this shop selling frog porridge.
the guy in charge grabbed a frog out of the big glass containers that looks like fish tanks.
he pinned the frog down belly-up.
and used his DAMN BIG CHOPPER to slice a fine line along the length of its body.
denn he proceeded to tear off its skin, TEAR OFF!
andd chopping of its legs before washing them and dumping them into the boiling pot.
all this took place in a matter of 20secs.
given my stunned reaction at that time,
do you think i'd have enough time to actually react?
i was too shocked to even turn away.
ever since then,
i swore never to go NEAR frog porridge.
i know its nice and tastes really like chicken meat,
but nonono. not after that incident man.

and now this video shows xiaxue killing the crab.
the video was about 9 mins,
so i do have enough reaction time.
but i was just curious to see if she would really do it.
and she did.
the first method was gross lah!
wtf she poked a bloody metal chopstick into the crab's eye.
and the crab was squirming like crazy.
i was staring at the screen going "OMG. WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING!!!!"
and i was also imagining if i were the crab,
getting a chopstick poked in ur eye is no joke okay.
it really hurts, and imagine having ur eyeball stuck in the middle of ur head,
GROSS!
the second method was even worse.
CHOP THE CRAB INTO HALF AND LEAVE IT TO DIE
its painful enough getting cut by a small bit of broken glass,
imagine having ur own shell cut ur body.
OUCH MAN!
and its no joke,
she pierced the knife through and still used some metal thing to knock it in.

i guess i can't deny the fact that the dish would taste better if it were live crabs,
but there are less cruel ways of killing the crab and still make a tasty dish!
my mom has never cooked chilli crab before
but we used to bbq alot.
and my mom would buy live crabs and her method of killing was putting them in the freezer,
and they freeze to death.
perhaps you might say its cruel to let them die a slow and painful death
but i always thought that in the freezer,
they'll just feel really cold and sleepy and probably dehydrated,
and when they fall asleep, they just die.
isn't it WAY less painful that getting ur eye pushed into ur brain
or being embedded in ur own shell, THE PINCERS FELL OFF SUMMORE!
you know what?
the best is just dun kill them.
fine, i may sound like those kinda anti-cruelty against animal kinda person right now,
but i think the various ways that people have of killing animals to satisfy their food cravings are simply... mean.
and those weird delicacies that people have all around the world.
what, with the FRIED RABBIT HEAD and LIVE SQUID or MONKEY BRAINS!
its not like we lack food or anything, humans don't have to resort to eating
THESE kinda stuff you know.
arghhh..anyway that was gross stuff.

i'm sorry for 0720.
their timetable really sucks,
i checked litespeed this afternoon for any new announcements
when i chanced upon it.
i saw that on one day their school ended at 6+!
its crazyy la..
den when i got home,
i saw many having 'NEW TIMETABLE SUCKS'
on their personal msg on msn.
yeah i agree with you guys,
it really does suck!
although i'm not following the timetable anymore,
i still feel a tad angry for them setting it to be this way.
who wouldn't? having to stay in school for 3/4 of the day is NO JOKE!
it really, seriously sucks.

lols. this is a very very long post.
hahaha. i'm feeling opinionated today.
is there such word?
tmr's gonna be another long day.
i'm going to downtown east tomorrow night with yl to celebrate nebo's 1st anniversary.
i have no idea wad we're gonna be doing,
i hope they do invite guest stars..
i'm hoping NAT HO! xDD
yeah fat hope.

lols. weekends are here!
have a good weekend!
this weekend's gonna be awesome cos monday's a school holiday! xDD
I JUST LOVE HOLIDAYS!

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