this is for you.

ever had someone you trust so much betray you?
try someone who's been living right next to you, sharing the same bedroom, living under the same roof do that to you.
you have no idea how scary that it.


how is it possible that i can receive 'punishment' for a crime i did not even commit?
Is not lending my stuff to YOU consider me in the need for a lesson learnt?
i cannot comprehend ONE BIT how that leads to me being punished,
even more so by YOU.


i can assure you that not lending you my foundation DOES NOT render me guilty,
and there is no need for you to hide my treasured belonging from me,
only to return it to me when i'm begging you on bent knees.(you wish.)
may i remind you that you are already 16 years old, and that, my dear, no longer falls under the category CHILDREN.
Therefore, there is no need to resort to such childish acts in a bid to see me stomp my foot and get furiously mad, for if that is the effect you are hoping for, you will be seriously disappointed.


this is not only about getting back at me, but it is also about CHARACTER,
which is a bigbig word that i am sure does not exist in your dictionary.
SURE, you may be able to mask it from the rest of the world,
and put on your pretty facade, BUT, the world is not all blind.
this rotten part of you will exist in you always,
and you are bound to let out your fox tail someday.
As someone who is at least genuinely concerned about you(as much as i don't want to be),
i do hope that day does not come before you have learnt that this is NOT the way to survive in the outside world.
Not everybody is able to condone to your childish acts.
try that on your boss next time and see where it gets you.


One day, you will just have to learn about responsibility,
and that comes from learning to admit to your mistakes and not whine about how you're scared of punishment only after doing something wrong.
THAT should have been thought about way before you do something stupid,
and it is known as consequences.
NO point doing something and fearing the consequences,
for that would only define you as a COWARD~
brave enough to do something so bold?
then be brave enough to face up to the music.


Perhaps you have your own good reasons for doing this,
which i can guarantee that i will not be interested to listen to.
but kindly do me the favour and skip the bullshit about "oh, i really care about you." or "i'm not as bad as you think." for that is really fucking nonsense to me.
punishing me for NOT lending you MY STUFF does not call for me to receive this kinda treatment from you.
it is tasteless, childish and truly blackhearted of you, my dearest sister.
if you still feel no guilt after what has happened,
then i am truly sad to say, that there is no longer any hope for you.